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Thursday, July 1, 2010

feeling like..
not needed and not wanted
often when you are down,
only then you will remember how great your life was,
how great were the friends and family around you,
and only then, you will miss them.
Homesick when I'am in second year of poly,eh?
i am dead inside,
been living like a zombie for 4 days since school starts,
its a torture to wake up and go to school,
i am so demotivated,
tell me why i shouldnt be?
i failed in my social circles
i dont have the power to control most things
didnt gain what i deserve after much effort,
and I feel so weak, feel so useless.
I desperately needed someone,
someone that I can share my problem with,
but I came to realise that no one can be there for me forever,
and even if they listen to you,
either they dont understand,
or they cant do anything.

I know i need to cheer myself up again.
kept telling myself: life's still great! but the heart says: prove it! :(

heart, please get well soon.

something I learnt,
there are people out there that I almost gone nuts cause of their attitude.
but next time if you dont like their words, simply walk away. Dont ever hope they will change to better.
consider how hard it is to change yourself, then you will see how hard it is to try to change others.