Monday, June 28, 2010
dreamer is so sad right now.
do you have to put me through this everytime?
ahhhhhh
only if my heart wont feel the pain,
off to bed.
do you have to put me through this everytime?
ahhhhhh
only if my heart wont feel the pain,
off to bed.
Saturday, June 26, 2010
one week flies in a blink of an eye.
i feel like i am one of the disabled cause my friends have been driving and fetch me here and there and i cant go out without them -.-
oh man, I wanna drive.
thankyou everyone that keeps me company during my stay in kuantan,
I really appreciate it, I really do.
-shopping with mum
-celebrated sin yee's bday at east grill steakhouse
-yumchar session at old town
-steamboat party
-watched toy story 3 and cried hahaha
-had fun at teecee
-ate durian and lambsteak
and sorry to my groupmates :((( coz i am in kuantan and didnt help much with those projects.
to that certain someone,
u asked me to bet?
i bet that you will juz leave me alone for these few days.
i won,
but i am not happy.
siau chui faster come :( i wanna talk to you.
i feel like i am one of the disabled cause my friends have been driving and fetch me here and there and i cant go out without them -.-
oh man, I wanna drive.
thankyou everyone that keeps me company during my stay in kuantan,
I really appreciate it, I really do.
-shopping with mum
-celebrated sin yee's bday at east grill steakhouse
-yumchar session at old town
-steamboat party
-watched toy story 3 and cried hahaha
-had fun at teecee
-ate durian and lambsteak
and sorry to my groupmates :((( coz i am in kuantan and didnt help much with those projects.
to that certain someone,
u asked me to bet?
i bet that you will juz leave me alone for these few days.
i won,
but i am not happy.
siau chui faster come :( i wanna talk to you.
Thursday, June 24, 2010
fuck everything!!!!!
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
I am having bad stomach.
T^T
i really wanna enjoy the steamboat later, so please, let me be fine.
T^T
i really wanna enjoy the steamboat later, so please, let me be fine.
Sunday, June 20, 2010
we were 7 minutes late and the bus was already gone!
we chased after the bus by taxi to woodlands checkpoint,
i kept asking the driver to hurry.
we run, and walk, then walk and run.
we saw a transnational bus!!!
we thought we made it.
sadly, it's the bus to KL.
the bus driver told us the bus to kuantan had just left a minute ago!
the driver agreed to give us a ride to JB custom.
and we finally caught up with the bus back to kuantan!
never in my life i felt so relieve and excited to be able to get in a bus.hahaha.
so there we go, another exciting "amazing race" lol
fyi, it happened before, we chased train.
AHHHHHH HI HOMETOWN!
HOW HAVE YOU BEEN?
^_^ so happy to see the familiar faces, the usual noisy environment, met my new maid saiwan who knows little Malay ( I dont remember whether she's from, vietnam or myammar), the little black bird and ofcourse my lovely bed!
I am still on my queen-sized bed. ahh last nite i was rolling left and right, covering myself with the thick blanket and turn the air-cond to max. ahhh so nice to slp on my bed!!
yesterday's dinner was awesome.
first it's durian,
then we had lamb chop specially made by mum, so juicy so tasty just sooooo nice hahaha
we had mashed potatoes too, fries, lamb shank, blueberry chese tarts, fruit tarts, orange vodka and finally a cake.
we were playing and taking photos with the cake hahaha.
i guess a new video will be uploaded soon.
I am back to heaven hahahaha.
we chased after the bus by taxi to woodlands checkpoint,
i kept asking the driver to hurry.
we run, and walk, then walk and run.
we saw a transnational bus!!!
we thought we made it.
sadly, it's the bus to KL.
the bus driver told us the bus to kuantan had just left a minute ago!
the driver agreed to give us a ride to JB custom.
and we finally caught up with the bus back to kuantan!
never in my life i felt so relieve and excited to be able to get in a bus.hahaha.
so there we go, another exciting "amazing race" lol
fyi, it happened before, we chased train.
AHHHHHH HI HOMETOWN!
HOW HAVE YOU BEEN?
^_^ so happy to see the familiar faces, the usual noisy environment, met my new maid saiwan who knows little Malay ( I dont remember whether she's from, vietnam or myammar), the little black bird and ofcourse my lovely bed!
I am still on my queen-sized bed. ahh last nite i was rolling left and right, covering myself with the thick blanket and turn the air-cond to max. ahhh so nice to slp on my bed!!
yesterday's dinner was awesome.
first it's durian,
then we had lamb chop specially made by mum, so juicy so tasty just sooooo nice hahaha
we had mashed potatoes too, fries, lamb shank, blueberry chese tarts, fruit tarts, orange vodka and finally a cake.
we were playing and taking photos with the cake hahaha.
i guess a new video will be uploaded soon.
I am back to heaven hahahaha.
Saturday, June 19, 2010
went to toastmaster today:D
No people. toastmaster ain't a restaurant, nor a shop selling foodie.
its a non-profit organization that educates you how to speak.
They train you to become more confident in public speaking, how to use different tone, how to use body language etc.
all guests were asked to introduce themselves and talk about one interesting thing that happened to you last week.
I wasn't expecting that! hahaha.
i was the third one to speak, all I had on mind was just Matthew. hahaha
so i start with 'Hi everyone. my name is adelline.." there goes my stories about how i met this amazing guy.
I cant believe myself actually sharing how i admire this guy, with 30 ppl, males and females, that were attending the meeting. and i dont know them=)
johannes seemed to be surprised that I talked about Matthew.
5 points for me .yeppie. johannes only got 2:)))
I dont know how they grade it but i guess more points the better?
met with xerri ta at ion orchard.
i bought a pair of legging and long socks- for my aussie trip.
ps:
i think i enjoy meeting new people from different cultures and different backgrounds.
you can learn alot just by talking to them. be it good or bad, it's still beneficial.
eventhough i am nervous sometimes, eventhough i am still lack of experiences compared to them, but i guess i will be better after some time.
well just like what one of the toastmasters have said:
you dont have to be good to start, but you have to start to be good.
No people. toastmaster ain't a restaurant, nor a shop selling foodie.
its a non-profit organization that educates you how to speak.
They train you to become more confident in public speaking, how to use different tone, how to use body language etc.
all guests were asked to introduce themselves and talk about one interesting thing that happened to you last week.
I wasn't expecting that! hahaha.
i was the third one to speak, all I had on mind was just Matthew. hahaha
so i start with 'Hi everyone. my name is adelline.." there goes my stories about how i met this amazing guy.
I cant believe myself actually sharing how i admire this guy, with 30 ppl, males and females, that were attending the meeting. and i dont know them=)
johannes seemed to be surprised that I talked about Matthew.
5 points for me .yeppie. johannes only got 2:)))
I dont know how they grade it but i guess more points the better?
met with xerri ta at ion orchard.
i bought a pair of legging and long socks- for my aussie trip.
ps:
i think i enjoy meeting new people from different cultures and different backgrounds.
you can learn alot just by talking to them. be it good or bad, it's still beneficial.
eventhough i am nervous sometimes, eventhough i am still lack of experiences compared to them, but i guess i will be better after some time.
well just like what one of the toastmasters have said:
you dont have to be good to start, but you have to start to be good.
Thursday, June 17, 2010
I went to St james power house with a friend.
it was ladies night yesterday so I got 5 free drinks !
no this is not the point !
a friend that my friend met in Aussie came to Singapore for a conference.
Doing some business here i guess.
he's a filipino-chinese guy,23 yo.
I cant believe I met such a cool person.
I was amazed at the way he spoke and acted.
First, he always try to start a conversation.
He speaks well and he tries not to leave me out.
well you know, when they talk about their friends, i kinda dont get them.
he explained to me so I could understand.
He can just start talking to strangers in the club like they have known each other for a long time.
He can talk about anything and eveything.wow.
second, he was so gentleman at asking a favour.
my friend wanted me to get him a drink, but i wanted my friend to accompany me.
" come on, get the drink for us pls and i will give you a hug in return. Give us a minute to have guy to guy talk,unoe."
so when i was queuing, he came to check on me cause i wasnt back for quite long.
he acc me to queue for a while and then he said
" i tell you what, why not we just leave the queue, i will treat you something"
and he treated me whisky with cola .wee
three of us dance and drink.
at around 12am, he got me a cab and gave me a hug and he left.
that was his last night in Singapore.
i am definitely gonna miss him. Well, i think my friend will miss him even more.
my friend said:" what do i do. its his last night in singapore. i dont know what to do with him"
not easy to see my friend getting so sentimental.LOL.
i am so much like a kid when i talked to him. so inexperience and shy.
its endless to talk about his good things.
i hardly meet people doing international business, who has been to many places, speaks confidently like he does.
ahs my life circle is still revolving around school kids
:) i wanna meet more people like him in the future .
ps: he told me something about my friend. infact, another friend told me the exact same thing too. the irony of this. hahas. yes i know, but i cant help it ok.
" he is a good guy, a good friend yah. but he wont be a good boyfriend"
it was ladies night yesterday so I got 5 free drinks !
no this is not the point !
a friend that my friend met in Aussie came to Singapore for a conference.
Doing some business here i guess.
he's a filipino-chinese guy,23 yo.
I cant believe I met such a cool person.
I was amazed at the way he spoke and acted.
First, he always try to start a conversation.
He speaks well and he tries not to leave me out.
well you know, when they talk about their friends, i kinda dont get them.
he explained to me so I could understand.
He can just start talking to strangers in the club like they have known each other for a long time.
He can talk about anything and eveything.wow.
second, he was so gentleman at asking a favour.
my friend wanted me to get him a drink, but i wanted my friend to accompany me.
" come on, get the drink for us pls and i will give you a hug in return. Give us a minute to have guy to guy talk,unoe."
so when i was queuing, he came to check on me cause i wasnt back for quite long.
he acc me to queue for a while and then he said
" i tell you what, why not we just leave the queue, i will treat you something"
and he treated me whisky with cola .wee
three of us dance and drink.
at around 12am, he got me a cab and gave me a hug and he left.
that was his last night in Singapore.
i am definitely gonna miss him. Well, i think my friend will miss him even more.
my friend said:" what do i do. its his last night in singapore. i dont know what to do with him"
not easy to see my friend getting so sentimental.LOL.
i am so much like a kid when i talked to him. so inexperience and shy.
its endless to talk about his good things.
i hardly meet people doing international business, who has been to many places, speaks confidently like he does.
ahs my life circle is still revolving around school kids
:) i wanna meet more people like him in the future .
ps: he told me something about my friend. infact, another friend told me the exact same thing too. the irony of this. hahas. yes i know, but i cant help it ok.
" he is a good guy, a good friend yah. but he wont be a good boyfriend"
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
if it's a game you wanted,
a game it will be.
a game it will be.
Sunday, June 13, 2010
i realised whenever I am in pain,i just keep on sleeping .
maybe i thought after i wake up, tadaa! problem's solved.
or maybe i just dont want myself to think.
is anyone out there like me too?
'feeling sleepy again =___='
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a friend of mine said i am kind, i think he meant I have high level of acceptance.
basically it's just quite hard to make me unhappy.
because i always think from the other parties perspective.
but i realised i need to learn to take firm stand in some occasions.
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I dont like to voice out when I have already known what's going to happen.
I feel it's pointless, and it doesn't change anything, so why not just keep the damn mouth shut?
but i think..well, sometimes you feel better after you say it out .=) i did. and i dont care whats gonna happen
maybe i thought after i wake up, tadaa! problem's solved.
or maybe i just dont want myself to think.
is anyone out there like me too?
'feeling sleepy again =___='
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a friend of mine said i am kind, i think he meant I have high level of acceptance.
basically it's just quite hard to make me unhappy.
because i always think from the other parties perspective.
but i realised i need to learn to take firm stand in some occasions.
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I dont like to voice out when I have already known what's going to happen.
I feel it's pointless, and it doesn't change anything, so why not just keep the damn mouth shut?
but i think..well, sometimes you feel better after you say it out .=) i did. and i dont care whats gonna happen
Saturday, June 12, 2010
hello diary,
it's me again.
I am not feeling too well, that's why i am posting again.
I feel like I dont belong to anywhere now,
this feeling sucks.
feeling like an extra.
it's me again.
I am not feeling too well, that's why i am posting again.
I feel like I dont belong to anywhere now,
this feeling sucks.
feeling like an extra.
you know,
things just wouldn't change.
I always know, I fooled myself not to believe.
it's like a cycle.
it hurts,
but i am addicted to it.
I used to think it was my fault that things didnt work out.
and i thought i need to give you what we missed out during the two years time.
but hey,
i guess it's really not my fault.
The only thing I did wrong was to reply that sms.
When pain turns into frustration,
you wouldn't even shed a tears.
too much a time,
i fake a smile and took everything in.
now i know that wouldn't work,
the sad things just keep on accumulating
and boo!
it will burst one day.
yet, i can complain to no one
because i chose this.
I always wanted to celebrate my birthday with you,
since every July you weren't here.
but maybe I cant wait until that time.
ahahas.
I really wished I could..
Have fun in KL.
things just wouldn't change.
I always know, I fooled myself not to believe.
it's like a cycle.
it hurts,
but i am addicted to it.
I used to think it was my fault that things didnt work out.
and i thought i need to give you what we missed out during the two years time.
but hey,
i guess it's really not my fault.
The only thing I did wrong was to reply that sms.
When pain turns into frustration,
you wouldn't even shed a tears.
too much a time,
i fake a smile and took everything in.
now i know that wouldn't work,
the sad things just keep on accumulating
and boo!
it will burst one day.
yet, i can complain to no one
because i chose this.
I always wanted to celebrate my birthday with you,
since every July you weren't here.
but maybe I cant wait until that time.
ahahas.
I really wished I could..
Have fun in KL.
Friday, June 11, 2010
readers! you might need to turn your head abit. I am not sure how to rotate the pic :(
THE MST WEEK IS OVER.yeppie
I went to watch 'Karate Kid' at cineileisure.
thought it's karate but it's all about kung fu.
Maybe they should consider to change the tittle to Kungfu kid instead.
bought a pair of nerdy specs:))) the one i am wearing in the photo hahah.
went to bugis after that, intended to buy a new pair of shoes,
but nothing caught my eyes.
just before we parted,
we realised we haven't tasted the chocolate.
I said we will just share it next time.
took mrt back to boonlay. met up with lynn and her classmates.
talked cock-
and then she accompanied me to have dinner.
ps:
I dont mind sitting there to eat, the truth is I wanna share the chocolate when my mood turns better.
SODA with jelly is super duper nice=)
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
one more paper left :D !
I can do whatever I want after that:))))
I can do whatever I want after that:))))
Monday, June 7, 2010
some people just need to die.
OH YES GO AHEAD SAY I AM WICKED, KARMA OR WHATEVER.
for a moment I really wanted to stand up and give a big slap on ur cheeks.
NEVER think it's okay just because I never say anything.
I said one time is enough, you did it again, and again.
fuck it.
now I think again, maybe it ain't that serious.
But if it EVER happens again, I will send you to hell, I promise.
next time,
no-give-face one i tell you.
OH YES GO AHEAD SAY I AM WICKED, KARMA OR WHATEVER.
for a moment I really wanted to stand up and give a big slap on ur cheeks.
NEVER think it's okay just because I never say anything.
I said one time is enough, you did it again, and again.
fuck it.
now I think again, maybe it ain't that serious.
But if it EVER happens again, I will send you to hell, I promise.
next time,
no-give-face one i tell you.
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
I've been blogging quite frequently.
I have to yell out my thoughts here :D
It's always better after I type everything out. aha
Today experiment was quite a sucess!
something went wrong during the experiment,
but it was just small case.
I was the leader-realised it's really great cause you have control the whole process. hahaha.
so the experiment goes at you wish.
not bad being as one heh :p
You just dissapeared. hmm 3rd days.
I don't know whether I will hear anything from you again,
no idea what's happening to you,
how's your life,
maybe you got back with her.
alrite :)
it's non of my business, really,
but I need some time to sort things out.
been thinking alot,
about life,
about school,
about us,
but yeah no conclusion came to me
I dont know what to do :)
ahs just lets nature takes it course,
god will know what to do with me.
but I do realised something,
I dont want someone who makes me feel insecure.
I have to yell out my thoughts here :D
It's always better after I type everything out. aha
Today experiment was quite a sucess!
something went wrong during the experiment,
but it was just small case.
I was the leader-realised it's really great cause you have control the whole process. hahaha.
so the experiment goes at you wish.
not bad being as one heh :p
You just dissapeared. hmm 3rd days.
I don't know whether I will hear anything from you again,
no idea what's happening to you,
how's your life,
maybe you got back with her.
alrite :)
it's non of my business, really,
but I need some time to sort things out.
been thinking alot,
about life,
about school,
about us,
but yeah no conclusion came to me
I dont know what to do :)
ahs just lets nature takes it course,
god will know what to do with me.
but I do realised something,
I dont want someone who makes me feel insecure.
Tuesday, June 1, 2010
somone like to tease you so what?
someone you were trying to help just did the opposite to you, and still think it's nothing, yeah so ?
you really want that someone to try listening to your complain, just listen, but she just failed as a listener.
someone you think you could trust, just happened to threathen you with the little secret you share,so what?
someone you think is important never seem to treat you as the important one.
She is publishing how much she misses him, and think she is the most pathetic girl that deserved everyone's love, so what?
ALL THAT DON'T MATTER. THEY DON'T.
I am sick of myself being so weak at times.
ahhhh..
just give me a rest
I still have test.
someone you were trying to help just did the opposite to you, and still think it's nothing, yeah so ?
you really want that someone to try listening to your complain, just listen, but she just failed as a listener.
someone you think you could trust, just happened to threathen you with the little secret you share,so what?
someone you think is important never seem to treat you as the important one.
She is publishing how much she misses him, and think she is the most pathetic girl that deserved everyone's love, so what?
ALL THAT DON'T MATTER. THEY DON'T.
I am sick of myself being so weak at times.
ahhhh..
just give me a rest
I still have test.